Falling North: A Turner Artist Rocker Novel (The Turner Artist Rocker Series Book 2) by Alyson Santos

Author:Alyson Santos [Santos, Alyson]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-04-22T23:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 15

XANDER

I push Lydia away, horrified at what I just allowed to happen. My body buzzes from the aftershock of her touch, my crotch cool from the sticky evidence of my failure. Fuck! How could I be so stupid? So weak.

I shove my face into my hands, fighting to catch my breath.

“Don’t,” she warns, gripping my fingers and forcing them down.

I close my eyes, refusing to look at her.

“Xander, don’t you dare regret this.”

I finally look at her. Crystal blue eyes search mine, begging me to find what we had a second ago. But we won’t, because there’s no finding what shouldn’t exist. I curse and push myself to my feet, grabbing my hoodie and water bottle off the floor. I will have to sneak to a bathroom and figure out some way to clean up. At the very least, it’ll give my brain a challenge to distract me from the woman I’m already craving again.

She latches onto my arm, spinning me back.

“So that’s it? You’re just gonna storm off and what… pretend this didn’t happen? Avoid me for the rest of the tour?”

I shrug, knowing it’ll piss her off, but we’ve already proven I’m too weak to keep us apart. It’ll have to come from her end. Even now, despite every alarm blaring around us, I’m staring at her braless tits with the longing of a teenager. It’s so much worse now that I know what it’s like to touch heaven, to run my fingers over silky clouds. I clench my fist. And now I get the added bonus of feeling like a total dick. What kind of man lets a woman get him off and leaves her alone, unfulfilled, in a storage closet? How many catastrophic mistakes can I make in one day?

I’m a fucking record-breaker.

“I have to go clean up,” I mutter, pulling away from her.

“Right. Just keep pretending there’s nothing between us. Keep acting like what happened was a mistake and not the inevitable truth we both have wanted since the second we met.”

I pull in a breath, shaking from the effort of staying away from her. One step closer and she’d be in my arms again, my mouth pleading with her hips to return the favor. I lick my lips, hardening again at the thought. She fingers the clasp on her jeans as she watches my gaze land on her zipper.

“Don’t,” I warn.

She slips open the button.

I close my eyes and back away, forcing my thoughts to Matty. To the look on his face when he asked why Lydia was in my room last night. Why? Because I want to steal her from you. Because I already have. My chest tightens. Irmãos para sempre. Right. I’m a monster.

“This can’t happen again, Lydia,” I say.

“Look, I get—”

“No! It can’t.” This time I’m the one pleading. It’s my eyes begging her to find me. To see my impossibilities and just fucking accept them because I’m so damn tired of fighting all the time.

Emotion settles in her eyes, and I have to look away.

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